i honestly think mine was sometime in 8th grade when i realized that i didn’t just admire this guy, i wanted to go out with him.
i got jealous when he jokingly flirted with guys, but at the same time hoped that he was hinting that he was queer and not just joking around.
Weird thing is, I never had one. I was 11 and sitting in my moms car while she was in the gas station, and thought to myself “why are all the couples on tv a guy and a girl. Surely someone out there likes the same sex. Would I…yeah, Id be fine with that” I was a sheltered autistic kid and just had never been exposed to homosexuality or homophobia. So while everyone on tv being straight was weird, it never occurred to me being gay would invite issues