(sorry for my english, this is not my 1st language)
i dont want to live, but recently i’ve read on wiki that s…ide of somebody affects on average 6 folks that knew the victim of s…ide, and now i think that i just cant k… myself because this might hurt my friends’ feelings, and i dont want them to feel bad because of me. and now i dont know what should i do. i really dont like my life and im tired of anything, but at the same time i cant just leave all my friends alone w/ their own depression and just leave this world. i just dont want be the reason of anybody’s progression of depression.
You can, and should, normalize saying suicide and kill myself; at least when we’re having these types of discussions. And I say this because I know it’s a social stigma that makes people uncomfortable.
It’s supposed to make people uncomfortable.
Part of the overall problem is that we as a society decided that saying things like suicide and killing myself is so horrible we have to hide away from speaking about it directly. So we make up euphemisms or we censor words. It demeans the severity of the topic; and make no mistake, it’s a serious topic.
I think about killing myself multiple times a day too. Back in my early twenties, I attempted suicide no less than 5 times: from cutting my wrist with a dull razor blade, to getting drunk and taking a bottle of antihistamines and going up top a ten story parking deck and hoping I’d be fucked up enough to not be scared of jumping; it’s real, it’s important, and it needs to be discussed sometimes.
If you feel like the well-being of your friends is enough to keep you here, then start with that, but don’t stop. It’s never enough to live for someone else. You should go deeper and find something more meaningful to you that will keep motivating you to wake up every day. Set some obtainable goals that you can work toward. It can be anything that motivates you and doesn’t necessarily need to be life-altering or huge.
But also a word of warning: if you live your life for others, you will eventually get let down. Make sure you have a solid plan b in place for if/when that happens.
You are beautiful.
I’m not sure what it takes to be able to conceptualize these feelings and wrangle them in like that, but you sure as shit do.
I’m proud of you for saying this, and I hope OP reads it.
I really fucking struggle with people, but every once in awhile I see someone do something like this, and it puts me back to a place where I believe we do good things. Thank you.
I know you’re just some “internet stranger”, but you honor me with your reply. I mean that; I cannot recall a nicer thing anyone has ever said to me or about me.
I read OP’s post and despite any differences in the finer details of their story, what they said is what has happened to me.
People should approach each other as if they are approaching themselves. If someone is suffering, then treat them how you would treat themselves.
If I cut my finger, I’m not going to get angry at it. I’m going to clean it up and wrap it in a bandaid. If I feel the need to get angry at something, I will point it at the person or thing that cut my finger.
If everyone started looking at other people like they would look at themselves, we’d all be better off. I think.
Agreed. Please keep being you at all costs and don’t compromise that for anything. Speaking of everyone, if everyone had your empathy, this sub wouldn’t exist.
If you’re ever feeling down, need a distraction, need to vent, need anything, my inbox is open and will continue to be. This is absolutely an invitation to you, and if anyone else is reading this and going through a rough time, please consider unloading your shit in my DMs. I’d love to be kind to you, mostly because you’re a person and you deserve it.