On the one hand I somewhat hate my old name and getting referred to as male, but on the other hand I would actually have to correct others to use my preferred name/pronouns.
Edit: Its not that im uncomfortable with she/her or that I have to fear of people having a negative reaction over it, but instead that I simply do not like to correct people so I do not “fulfill” the st ereotype of “the annoying trans person that constantly annoys you about pronouns”. Is it completely irrational to think like that (especially since all of the people I interact with are very accepting)? Yes! Do I still feel that way? Also yes!
Third hand bursting from my chest like a xenomorph, “yah but what if my truth does not exist with in the binary and my discomfort from correcting others comes from me not being entirely sure that my assertion of gender identity is accurate”
Fourth hand slapping me across the face “ and what if that feeling is just a result of externalized pressures insisting that I can not fit an idealized notion of the concept I claim to be, or perhaps my uncertainty in what others view that concept as, and if I am improperly conveying that concept I am feeling to them due to our difference in understanding•”
Just use they/them, the convenient catch-all.