I feel like I could do a big write up on this - I could if I wanted to.
Which incidentally is the theme here. As a point of focus, there is a song by that name, which can be found here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GUuU99c_9mY
It appears to be parodying the kind of person who has apathy, or even aversion, toward participating in “normal social standards” and insists that they could do it if they wanted to, but don’t want to.
What I find interesting about this, as it relates to a forum like here and the stuff we’re able to recognize and talk about, is that I suspect there’s some connection in that mindset to hyper individualism. Notably, the mindset in question is not “I can’t do it,” or “the system is stopping me,” or “I am revolted by what it wants me to do” on their own.
The mindset appears to be more like: “I kind of want to be normal, but something is in the way; however, because I can’t accuse the system of being at fault, it has to be something wrong with me. Therefore, what it comes down to is that I could do it if I wanted to, but I don’t want to. I maintain my self-esteem by making it a purposeful choice of mine to ‘fail’ rather than anything systemic.”
Thoughts?
Edit: little tweaks to wording
I found a YouTube link in your post. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy:
Hmm
To be honest, I feel apathy at times, and I can’t help myself… I just feel apathetic to it all, at times, and can’t really get myself to feel excited for… anything. I just feel… nothing. Nothing…
Anyone else?
Maybe before the American genocide. Now I’m full of purpose.
Are you at the protests too?
I’ve been doing what I can for Palestine.
Yes I’ve been to most of the protests in my area.
Thing is that so much shit is happening that, like Makan said I feel apathy all the time, I’m so desensitized to everything to the point that nothing phrases me whatever happens every day. That also includes lib and other reactionary shit that is encountered on the internet on a daily basis, it made my blood boil every time before, but as I said once, I just laugh my ass off almost every single time. Which is a good thing because otherwise there would be the urge to beat people up every singe day while living here.
tl;dr despair.