I wrote this whole thing about mum and dad, and whatever, and I just can’t be bothered.
It hurts Mum is off the deep end and hasn’t tried to make amends or meet my boundaries for a relationship. It’s like she’s given up and gone full boar into her delusions, and I’m left behind as a “possessed devil worshipper”.
Like, she isn’t even Christian or anything, just super spiritual and lost within her schizophrenic angel-and-demon obsession. That demons and devils, and “evil psychics from the US” are committing “psychic assaults” and causing mental illness.
I just want my fucking mum back.
I’m sorry Spud. Sometimes people just can’t be who we need them to be but it doesn’t hurt any less.
Don’t internalise any of that crap :(
Aw fuck spud I’m sorry to hear that 🫂
So sorry. I have a parent that went full extreme right wing conspiracy nutter during covid and has never come back. We don’t talk anymore, after much trying on my part and none on theirs. I have no advice other than look after your own mental health, because you probably can’t do anything about theirs. They have 100% certainty in their righteousness. I hope your situation is not as bad though. It’s rough, because it’s like loosing a parent. Actually, it is loosing a parent. You’ll grieve and wonder why. But you’ll feel better in time if you prioritise yourself. Took me too long to learn that.
Really sorry to hear that.
I’m so sorry. So many hugs.
Gratitude thread. I’m grateful to have a roof over my head, and glad it’s still attached.
Grateful for the SES and all of the various emergency workers.
And grateful for fluffy cats.
I’m grateful that my no more late night snacking has resulted in a 500g weight loss. I’ve done nothing else differently.
I was doing ok until I recently said I was, then I jinxed it 😔 Glad you’ve got some results though, well done!
Thank you.
I was mindlessly snacking when I wasn’t hungry so I decided I wasn’t gonna eat after 8pm.
Jump back on the train with me. Eat tea, have dessert if need be and then stop after 8pm. That’s all. Baby steps.
Eating when you’re not hungry does me in, but the reason is that my biggest problem is also eating to avoid food being wasted. I think, “look that’ll get thrown out, can’t waste it,” and I’ll eat it when I’m not hungry, especially things that aren’t freezable or good for lunch the next day. I’ll have to maybe start making smaller portions.
Oh I see. Yeah I hate waste too.
i too have stuck to my new eating plan. No snacks on errands, no bikkies at all, no desserts or cakes will be made . I have no idea if I have lost weight.
have been on decaf after 3 pm for the past month
I will also forgo store bought roti and parathas and only eat healthy home made fat free ones if i have them at all
Woah. Way to go!
I’m wondering if you sleep better without the caffeine after 3pm? I don’t have a problem with sleeping but I know others do and I’m just curious.
I do sleep better :)
🙂
Very impressive! And nice work for sticking to it. I’m doing ok, mainly because I have to take a tablet in the evening on an empty stomach. Otherwise, I don’t know if my willpower would hold out, lol
Thanks. Well done to you too!
I’m grateful nothing fell on us or blew away, and hope this continues.
I’m grateful for the electric blanket and the power staying on.
I’m grateful for Melbcat herself. We’re going through a rough patch with her health but she’s what keeps me going.
Grateful to be inside and shielded from the weather, sleep, and feeling kinda hopeful about a Difficult Assignment.
grateful for the huge steel window shutters I got
grateful for warm aussie merino jumpers
I’m grateful that the doggo who randomly ‘attacked’ me yesterday on the way back from the shops had no idea what it was doing. Out of no where just launched itself at my bum. Mum and daughter walking it off leash on a main road (big no no) about 30m behind me and it just went for me (poorly). Daughter ran up to ‘stop’ doggo which was nice of her. Mother was yelling ‘thank you, thank you!’ but I’m not sure if that was directed at the dog, the daughter or me.
Then neighbours’ doggo ran up for a pat as I was just getting home. No issues with that one. Good doggo.
Just wanted to show off my Opa’s pond for his goldfish. The netting is to stop kookaburras from eating them (a few had been lost to them in the early days).
There are three orange goldfish, one white, one mottled, and one entirely black one. The photo below has them all in it, I was so happy to get the black one on camera. They blend in so well, and with the reflections, I can sometimes only spot him if he pops his head above the water.
I love it. 🙂
Can I just delete this week, it looks like a whole pile of Everything Difficult And Going Wrong On All Fronts. Very aggro customer response that I’m frankly scared to deal with and responded as best I could to the intermediary (cust. wants face to face meeting. I put my foot down). More to come in other job tomorrow. And now it turns out I’ve been enrolled into the wrong bloody uni subject because nobody was paying attention (including me)… and who the fuck knows what fresh hell that opens up with uni bureaucracy and CSP payments. plus my assignment is now 50% over the word limit. I want to disappear into the ground.
hugs Take a breath. You got this, K.
Very aggro customer
You can borrow my trebuchet if you need it. I’ll freeze some lemons.
I’m reading up on the psych of hoarding again. Too many family members are effected and I’m sick of doing the clean ups.
at the same time I have a horror of thinking whenever the house is a bit messy or I have stuff " god I hope I don’t have it
I can see hoardery traits in myself, so I’ve been working on decluttering and not letting it turn into a problem. I’ll never be a minimalist but it’s nice to have space in the house.
E: I do think being self-aware is what helps stop it getting out of control. And having cleared a hoarder house in the past means I don’t want to inflict that on anybody else, too
I think humans have innate tendencies to own objects, we use tools, we need clothes, we cook and we store food. It’s biology and culture.
But it’s just been to easy to buy things and that’s why we have too much stuff.
It’s like food, we love sweet and creamy, it’s biology, so in a land of milk and honey it’s too easy to put on weight.
Like you said, we have to be aware. 👍
I remember clearing out my great aunt’s place way back as a kid. She went through the great depression and hoarded everything imaginable. That was eye opening.
I HATE all this noise. Feels like I’ve been under constant assault for nearly a week now. So over it.
Same. I’m ND so the sensory hell of noise and touch and cold has been really really crap this last week. Makes me irrationally angry.
Cant even imagine how bad it must be for you. Mine’s just pushing on the anxious part of my brain so its bad but not yet “break down in bed” bad yet.
I hear you man. I just want a quiet nights sleep.
Magpie update : nest no longer in tree. No hope for the baby chicks as only 10 days out of the egg at most. Mrs maggie was seen this morning gathering nesting material, so maybe maybe maybe will lay more eggs. Wishing her the very best of luck. Young male maggie nowhere in sight this morning.
Poor little things. No hope of them perhaps still being alive at the base of the tree? 😢
Unfortunately not. Tree is in the backyard of a known anti-vegetation anti-mess maven. That is, a person who dug up ALL the bare earth in the backyard except for the tree (which is huuge and on the council register) and replaced it with tamped gravel and astroturf to save on mowing. Has been known to apply roundup to the nature strip in the street at the first hint of a weed, and talks frequently about hating ‘mess’. Not generally liked as a person.
Those people belong in apartments.
Oh nooo 😭 maybe this time she can find a more suitable mate at least
😭
“I’m helping Seagoon setting up the record player and choosing a comfy album”
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The HMV dog got nothin’ on your boy! The pics could be straight off a greeting card.
aw, thanks, I’ll tell Ted he has fans. 😻
Nipper the Dog has his own wiki page! https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nipper
Nipper, eh? Thanks for that link, I’ve always loved that iconic image. In fact, I see it every day just up the road from me:
This place was an old TV and electrical repair shop many years ago. Now it’s someone’s house.
I finished my second TAFE class. Awgh everytime I go I always end up coming out feeling accomplished and happy - so why do I spend the hour prior stressing and all anxious for no real reason at all? I actually had little flash thoughts in my mind before hand that I should drop out. They weren’t really real thoughts, just little anxiety bubbles that were popping up in the sea of other thoughts
I really like this trainer. Very people first it seems. I don’t regret leaving high school for this one bit, although I do have the weeds of self doubt that hours of weeding never seem to uproot. It always grows back.
Edit: clarity
Anxiety can tell you lies. You did the right thing to overcome it and go for your goals. New things can be stressful, this is completely normal. The trick is not to never be nervous, but to overcome it. It will become less with each class as you gain confidence in your achievements. Yay you!
Excuse me?
That wind has some bite
It fucken cold. And a long day. 11 hrs and nothing came easy today. The plus sides, though, are:
- my uni stuff got sorted in the nick of time
- I don’t need to redo my assignment
- I found out I have until 28 Oct to rectify my whole 3G phone network bizzo. Two more months of breathing space to enact firmware hack or give up and buy a new phone.
- I’m doing so much overtime I could probably take an extra day off and stretch it to 10 days away in Perth
- can avoid today’s Angery Customer until Friday
- avoided all the Weather today
- have stash of ready-made food in freezer
- pay day this week yey thank fuck
- barely used my car, can save on filling up until next low point
- long awaited haircut this week
It’s gonna be alright… tries not to dramatically sob into pillow
I’m regards to your angry customer is there someone who can help you deescalate it or provide you with some support?
Might be handy to have someone there with you with the angry customer as a support as well as a witness.
I’ve definitely put my foot down on meeting this person solo. The people who’d normally go with me aren’t available til next week. After which point we are past the deadline. I’ve communicated this back and provided a solution that I think should satisfy everyone… but it’s not my problem until Friday, meanwhile let’s hope someone monitors the shared inbox.
The person who normally goes on site and meets customers if necessary does it solo, I don’t quite have his mental fortitude! Not gonna hold myself up to his standards.
Back from my week off in NZ. Absolutely stunning scenery all around, it was just one incredible vista after another and I wondered how this place was real.
Had a couple days skiing as well, thankfully I remembered how to snowboard even though the last time I was at the snow was something like 8 years ago, much fun had. One aspect I had forgotten is how bloody expensive skiing is. It was more worth it for this trip because I wasn’t just going there for skiing, but I can’t imagine sinking that kind of money to go to the Victorian ski resorts.
Back at it today and still exhausted even after two recovery sleeps, not even the wind could keep me awake last night. I think I’ve reached the age where I need my own accom when going away with a group of friends, because I was only getting 5 - 6 hours of sleep in our Airbnb house every night and while I didn’t really feel it there, as soon as I got home it all hit me.
Apparently I missed a lot of wind?! My backyard looked like it had been trashed.
looks westward O lawd he comin’
yeah he just passed over here. Was sitting here thinking we were through the worst then POW temp drop and sleety rain…ewww
Bam!
Get up. Put pasta and bits in pan in oven …you…can…do…it…oldgreeeeeeeeg…
C’mon on oldgreg C’mon C’mon. C’mon oldgreg C’monnnnnn. 🎶
haha. OMG now that’s stuck in my head. But done. It’s a pasta/pumpkin/salami/cheese thingomijig
Howzat!
🤣
I cannot win. Yesterday I went down to the docs to get my blood tested to see how tasty it is, only to be told that they’re at capacity for the day (11am) and come back another day.
Today I go in, take a number and get called in only to be told that I’ve OVER FASTED by an hour or so. I had no idea you could over fast for a blood test. Apparently the sweet spot is between 8 and 12 hours of fasting and I was on hour 15. The lab generally doesn’t do tests over 14 hours.
And today is my last day in Melton so I’m going to have to come back another time, which isn’t so bad because I can come visit my family. I wasn’t going to see the doc again to get results for a month so I’ll just do it on one of the weekends coming up I guess.
Annoying because I psyched myself up for the needle… twice… I am historically not great with needles/having blood drawn.
I did not know that either. And all that effort into psyching yourself up, gone to waste. I hear you on that, it’s hard to get there.
You can get your blood taken anywhere, and telehealth for results?
