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Cake day: June 5th, 2024

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  • I am in the midst of a really bad fibromyalgia flare and have had insomnia for the last week or so. I did a deep dive/scroll on her IG bc I had time at 3am, and hoped it would bore me to sleep lol. But her IG tells a really sad story. Much farther back, when her 100 lb weight loss was her whole identity, every 6-10 posts was a side by side of old “fat” self next to current waif self. I mean she posted these constantly!
    Not sure which of you recently pointed this out, but her pregnancy with L is what triggered this latest spiral of hers. She was feeling good about herself bc she was thin. She struggled with her feelings about pregnancy and pregnant body (and to be clear, I’m not saying she struggled with her feelings about L. But she did have some honest moments about “bonding” struggles) (and if you just looked without reading you’d never guess she struggled…. A lot of skin in the feed!) and I’m sure she legit had some depression issues. The thing is she has never dealt with her disordered eating and body dysmorphia. So here we are. The 100lb weight loss is way in the past so that can’t be her identity. She’s loving her current weight loss a lot, obviously. But clearly she’s still unwell bc her use of filters is insane.
    She’s really not a well person. In addition to fueling other people’s hypochondria, she’s doing damage to some like me who sought her content for legit inspiration. It fucks with my head and my self image. It has to be doing the same to women who don’t know what’s going on. She needs so much real therapy. Seriously. The hypochondria alone is wild and unchecked. How many illnesses has she had oh so briefly? Must be nice. Anyone with chronic pain issues must question why they can’t just stop feeling their illness and go traveling and shopping instead. And I don’t say that to be glib. The story her grid tells is sad, even scary. It’s all so gross. Janette nailed it too. Interestingly I was mentally composing this post or a blog post of my own at the same time Janette posted that story.
    Anyway, just my thoughts.