So, if I am understanding you correctly, your problems with Marxism mostly stem from elitist aesthetics and attitudes? I can’t say I agree with that view of Marxism and Marxists, but then I ask, why pivot to Anarchism, rather than trying to combat what you perceive as elitist aesthetics and attitudes within the Marxist current if you agree with the theoretical foundations? Unless, of course, you also disagree with those, but you haven’t indicated that thus far so I have no way of knowing. Funnily enough, you may be interested in some of Mao’s writing, Get Organized! and Serve the People, as well much of Mao’s other works are directly focused on instilling humility in the Communist Party of China and focusing on a servile attitude. That’s much of the purpose of the Mass Line as well.
Not trying to be overly critical, I am very openly trying to get more people to read at least a few sections in my reading list I made.
The Party for Socialism and Liberation is attempting to do just that.