My biggest demon is my anger. If Dante’s Inferno were real, I’d end up in the fifth circle, where “the sullen (the passively wrathful) lie beneath the water, withdrawn, ‘into a black sulkiness which can find no joy in God or man or the universe’.” It sucks. It hurts me every single time. Just today, I spend three-ish hours working on a video project in Kdenlive, but there’s something about gifs that I don’t understand that makes it render all wrong (“Rendering a project with variable framerate clips can lead to audio/video desync” but transcoding into an edit-friendly format doesn’t work because something something GPU drivers). It’s a stupid little thing that I’m trying to make, nothing important, really (only to me, I guess), but seeing it all fall apart hurt so much. After two attempts to fix it, I ended up yelling at my computer. I took a notebook and smashed it against a sharp bit on my squat rack again and again before tossing it across the room. I don’t like seeing my neighbours because they must’ve heard me scream at least once by now. It’s weird. I’m not like this usually. But when tech doesn’t work and I don’t understand why, that makes me extremely angry. If there’s a reason, even if it’s a dumb one (looking at the nm-applet in Linux Mint), I’ll be fine, but when errors are hidden behind a veil that all the googling in the world can’t lift, that’s what triggers me.

This behaviour might shorten my life by a good bit, but idc. It also makes me sad every time. My therapist told me that I shouldn’t hold my anger in and instead use the energy it gives me to bring forth positive change, but I don’t think he understood just how angry I could get.

Idk, I’m just tired. Being silly online is a great distraction, but it won’t fix my life. Idk if anything can fix my life. My throat hurts from yelling. I don’t want to go outside or see anybody for a few more hours. I wish I could stop being so angry, but it feels like I”m fundamentally broken.

Sorry, I just needed to write this.

“Meow :3c” he said.

“Mrrrrrp… nyaaa uwu” he replied.

Then they fucked.

The end :3

I kinda like that tbh. I get to see a number when I post something, but when I don’t post anything for a while, there’s no big “total” number on my profile reminding me that I’m doing fuck all when I could be making art :3

Don’t penguins usually mate for life? What are you doing to this poor creature?? D:

Mrrrrrp meowmeow mrrrr~meoooooow meow-meoooooooow-meowmeow meoooooooow-- nyaaaaa crash

You can be both!

This is so heartbreaking to read. A week after seeing the specialist. That sucks so much, especially after finally recovering from covid :(

FA was a huge part of my fandom experience when I was a young fur. I never knew him personally, but this website that he made has had such a big impact on my life that it still feels like losing a close friend.

^{Did someone say}

AWOOOOOOOO

🔪 >:3

How… how are they going to get to those cables? OnO

I did! (because I was doing that instead of what I was supposed to be doing :3c )

I’m not sure how exactly Wikimedia works, but this photo is in a folder called “Dinamik’s images” under “30-11-2007,” so that’s probably the person who took it. According to the image description, this is at Muzhestva square in Saint Petersburg, and it looks like that’s correct because satellite images of that place show the same kind of junction, and they also show a building that looks like the one in the background where you would expect it to be.

The tram in this photo is an LVS-86, and according to the Dutch Wikipedia article about trams in Saint Petersburg, it’s line 55 :3

So if I become a bear, people will finally love me?

“Ha! No.” -Alastor

I’ll ask my next employer to add that to the contract :3

The way she drinks that bag of blood is so cute <3

It says “Do not eat,” so it should be perfectly safe to drink! uwu

I have a small Blahaj (55 cm long, there’s a one-metre version, too) that I’d rate medium-to-good in terms of cuddlability, maybe a 7-ish out of ten. Its stuffing is soft but still offers a good amount of resistance when you squeeze it, so you actually feel its body when you hug it. The size is a bit small for full-body cuddling, but it’s great for cuddles on a chair; I like to put it on my forearm or hold it between my body and my elbow when I’m typing, but the bigger version would be better for cuddles when I’m in bed or standing up, or when you want to dance with it. It has very little fluff (like, the “fur” of a plushie), which makes it a bit “harder” than fluffier ones, but not uncomfortably hard. I often find myself holding Blahaj’s fins / hands because they’re the perfect size for that, I think. It’s also very compact and doesn’t have any long limbs (like tails, big ears, long arms) that make it more difficult to handle.

I’d say that small Blahaj is a plushie with a great form factor and a good compromise between portability and cuddlability, but this also means that it doesn’t excel at anything. For more specific purposes, there are other plushies that are more suitable than Blahaj, but it’s still a great all-rounder for the average person. If you already have plushies that suit you well, I wouldn’t say you’re missing out, but if you don’t have any, it’s a good entry-level plushie :3

The words are all there in my head, but somehow, they always get lost on the way to my mouth :c