Do you have kids? Does your schedule accomodate parenting and chore duties? I feel that after my kid was born, I lost the possibility of having a good night of sleep. And my kid is already older, so I don’t have the issue of waking up many times during the night anymore. Even so, just surviving has been difficult.
I don’t like adding up more isms as more authors add their knowledge to it, like after Mao added his contributions, then some people started calling it afterwards Marxism-Leninism-Maoism… Marxism is a broad field of science that encompasses economics, history, sociology, revolutionary organization etc…
That said, I love Mao and Lenin’s additions to the theory. But for simplicity, I just call the field of study as Marxism.