Wow this really resonates with me. My friends have helped me get through fire and hell. Probably the hardest point in my life and having friends wasn’t really a thing for me until I started to transition. Who knew I was an extravert?

But also you losing your discord server resonates with me as well as I recently had to leave a server where I connected with all of my close friends. It was the first home I had ever had that loved and accepted me as Olivia and I had to walk away for my own mental health.

Well Téa, it’s nice to meet you and I’m happy to hear you’re able to be your true self with your friends! Hold them close because it sounds like they can help you get through anything ❤️

My man boobage did :P

Full on woman chest now though which. Is. Amazing 😁

Congrats on the weight loss! That’s amazing and I hope you continue on your trajectory ❤️ it’s amazing what happens when we take care of ourselves huh? 😉

And besides HRT, getting laser done on my face has been the most affirming and best decisions I have made for myself ❤️ I’m about 4 sessions in

Proud of you dude! Seriously. Like I said waaaaaay back when we first met, you are the definition of what a good man is. Happy to know the changes you are experiencing have been pushing you in the right direction.

And I feel a lot of the same sentiments about my journey just in the opposite direction :3

It warms my heart to hear you are doing well and transition has been so helpful for you.

Especially with self image ❤️ as you know, I take a lot of selfies now 🤦🏻‍♀️ when I was so adverse to them before. And seeing photos of the person I was before, there isn’t a single thing I recognize in him except for complete despair in his eyes. Now I’m full of life and so happy to be sharing this journey with my friends like you :)

Couldn’t agree more with you on this point. I have worries as I think many of us do that this wasn’t actually right for me and I’ve permanently altered my body in a way that is def not gender conforming (aka I have boobs now)

But when I take a step back and think of how I felt before, and how I feel now. It’s so contest. I found self love after searching for 30 years because of transitioning, especially medically.

It’s cliche to say at this point, but HRT saved my life and now I can enjoy my moments with my son ❤️

Oh my god that’s awesome! Also getting laser done on my face (4 or 5 sessions in? 🤔)

And my hair is also really curly and growing out! My stylist says curly and thick hair like mine tends to grow outward before down so getting it shaped often is important 🤷🏻‍♀️

Happy to send you a photo of my hairs journey thus far if you DM me 😁

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Keep walking towards that bit of light. Even if it feels like it’s getting further away.

One small baby step at a time.

You’ll get there and I’m sorry you’re not where you want to be yet ❤️

I. Love. This. 😅

I am hoping so! And even if I slip, that’s okay because I’ll be able to get back to this point. I know it exists now :3

It’s really fucking hard and seems to be person dependent. For me, self care helps a great deal. Trying to be as put together as I can helps me feel like there is less for me to focus on and nitpick.

I can’t go into a weird dysphoria spiral because I haven’t shaved my face in a few days if I shaved last night for example.

Finding friends and staying in touch with them has been very important for me. Especially those that don’t fall into the codependent habits I’ve always been susceptible to. I’ve learned what healthier boundaries look like just by having friends that naturally have them in place and being open to why they have them in place.

Therapy is also a huge one. I’ve learned that I need to prioritize my own health and happiness above others. Something I would always neglect until I was past burnt out and in the more serious side of despair.

And finally, learning to stop comparing myself to how I want to be. Learning to be happy with where I am right now on my journey vs why I’m not where I want to be.

It’s a long difficult journey, and I had to do each bit in steps. I’m still not where I’d like to be (but not upset with myself for not being there yet 😉) and have learned that everything in life is a journey or transition. Have to embrace it a day at a time the best you can and don’t beat yourself up for having bad days/weeks/months/years

Good luck ❤️

Hehe. I saw your application come through the other day 😉

Might just do that :P

Orchi is probably my first surgical step.

Interested ☺️

Sounds cheaper than current surgical options 😁

For me, chemical x was testosterone.

It gave me dysphoria instead of super powers 😔

Well keep listening to that brain and nice critters Hun ;)

Believe it or not that mind of yours wants to be happy and to live life :) I hope this is your first step towards that.

Please feel free to reach out to me through dm or discord/matrix if you’d like another trans sister to talk to ❤️

I live in Indiana so I’m pretty far away but can offer internet cookies and virtual hugs

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I, like many of us in this community, have been following your situation closely. Unfortunately I was not in a place where I could help how I would have liked, but I will say this:

I’m so incredibly proud of you Keris. I know this was such a scary step but you did it! Take a deep breath and try and relax your little critter head 😘

Better days are ahead. Just keep on taking those small steps. One after another. Soon you’ll realize just how far you’ve come and all the friends and family you have found along the way.

We get to choose our family. And no one can take that from us.

Love yourself and take care ❤️

-Olivia

Both you and your familiar are gorgeous!