when i was around 7 or 8, i was convinced i was actually born a boy and my family was lying to me. i wanted short hair too. i didn’t like to wear dresses or stereotypically girly stuff and i wanted to wear men’s clothes. i wanted to hang out with the other boys and it always seemed like the “boy world” was more my thing at that age than the girl world i was expected to enter.
Not exactly, but often times I feel very guided in my actions, and things always seem to work out when I lean into it, and conversely go bad when I stray from it. Whether that’s wisdom from past lives, genetic coding, ancestors looking down on me, angels, God, aliens, or just powers of subconscious observation - I couldn’t even begin to guess.
For example, I always drive the same route home from work, but once felt an overwhelming desire to take a different way. I found out later that there was an accident on my usual route. Coincidences like that seem to happen a lot.
I know that’s only loosely tied to what you were getting at but thought it was interesting enough to share.