I’ve noticed that when I used to see myself in pictures I’d hyper assess every little detail of it to check for passing. Now when I see myself in pictures I don’t do that anymore. Anybody else notice the same thing?
I’ve noticed that when I used to see myself in pictures I’d hyper assess every little detail of it to check for passing. Now when I see myself in pictures I don’t do that anymore. Anybody else notice the same thing?
I wouldn’t say I no longer experience dysphoria when looking in the mirror, on the contrary just a few weeks ago I experienced the worst episode I’ve had since transitioning (and I’m approaching three years). I would more say that, on many days, I’ll catch my reflection and my brain will read it as “woman” (even pretty!). Other days, especially depending on how I’m feeling about myself generally, I’ll fixate on what I perceive as the masculine aspect of my face (or mostly my body TBH). It’s not perfect, but I’ll take the wins when I can get them.
Like I said, I had that happen for the first time around about where you are. But it’s really only in the last year or so that it is consistent. I honestly would be quite surprised if you didn’t have something similar happen eventually. You’ll catch your reflection off guard sometime and your brain will register the gender before it realises its you and distorts it with dysphoria.