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  • OldEggNewTricks@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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    4 months ago

    Objectively… quite good? But I feel terrible. The dysphoria is strong and I feel like I’m faking it.

    • Told my wife explicitly I’m transgender. “Oh yeah,” she says, “you always had that kind of an air about you.” Now you tell me! Haven’t talked about transitioning yet.
    • Since my egg cracked the desire to stuff myself full of junk food and get drunk has just vanished. I’m eating healthier and WAY less.
    • Tried putting on makeup; just copying tutorials so far, but apparently I resemble my mother. Was aiming for something a bit younger though :(
    • Bought a BLÅHAJ. If I’m going to jump on the trans bandwagon I might as well have something to hug.
    • All the clothes in the women’s section are for people 20cm shorter and half my weight
    • But I did find a cute hat. My face looks stupid beneath it, but I’m going to wear it anyway.
    • I painted my nails, and I can’t stop staring at my hands. Awww yeah :3
    • Noticed that I actually have quite feminine fingers (and incidentally a noticeable cupid’s bow). Win, I guess!
    • I want to start HRT.
    • Kind of hoping someone will call me a good girl?